What's in Bag

What's in Bag... 


Feb 1st, 2012
. date book (fairly important)
. phone charger (essential)
. wallet
.wet wipes
. Vancouver gloves
. leather gloves
.rubics cube, third one, this one metallic shiny (bunja bunja)
.2 scented Miffy pens (red and black..strawberry and blackberry)
.one tattered paper with phone numbers of anyone essential in Korea
.several random receipts (created just to clutter my life, I am sure)
. one tattered paper with Rubics algorithms written a second time
.earphones (absolutely essential)
.bus pass, bank card, id car, stuffed in a pocket
.mechanical pencil refils
.Bible (second one, tattered, with Hello Kitty sticker which upsets the Baptists)

Feb 23, 2012
.date book (most essential of all time, packed full with dates and things that have to be done)
.phone charger (essential)
.extra battery, USB memory, two sd cards (fun)
.wallet (almost empty)
.two new sets of glasses
.Vancouver gloves and leather gloves
.cargo mailing address labels, four..representing 80 possible kgs
.four passports (one old Canadian, one new Canadian, one Korean, another one Canadian)
.brand new four way nail buffer
.Burts Bees lip chap (essential, almost)
.Nasonex (also essential, almost)
.Korean bank book
.sunglasses (yes!)
.half a dozen email addresses written on scrap paper
.photo of Avaih with angel's wings
.house bills water and electricity..last ones I will pay on this particular adventure
. Bible (no, wait,shit, where is it? haven't seen it in days)

Next week..

.two plane tickets to Canada
.passports, Canadian ID, bank card, etc.
.Canadian phone, charged and ready
.gum
.meds, toothbrush, eye makeup remover, kleenex, children's gravol
.Seoul starbucks coffee canteen, empty..
. rubics cube (essential)
.Vancouver gloves, leather gloves
.Bible (most essential of all time)
. date book (empty from today)

Rejection on our Bus

It's yours and mine, the bus.
I ride, you drive.
I say hello and you wonder why.

I have been trying to make you smile for almost a year.
All the others were a cinch compared to angry you.
It didn't help matters when my kid threw up on your bus.

Today you cast a small reply to my hello and I was shocked.
I should have treasured that for a while.
But my greed took over and I wanted more.

Approaching you I knew you'd probably deny my gift.
But anticipating the worst doesn't ease the shock when it actually happens.
I begged you to take it, in extended arm, broken language, pleading eyes.

It was a moment of disaster.

But now I know you couldn't take it.
After all ,how could you continue being mean to me every day,
 after you accepted my kindness, even small.

You need more time to step out of self hate and let yourself be loved.
You need more time to learn that when people offer you something
that they don't always want something in return.

But I guess I did. I wanted you to smile.