Abide

This word seems to have so many layers and meaning and it reveals them throughout the years. Today, it means walking right into the storm and just being in it. Endurance with patient affirmation that it will eventually dissipate. It is so tiring and futile, running from all of the discomfort. Time to face all of it dead on. Time to abide,  v 4.0. Time to be brave and trust.

Raw Again

raw again

after months of drought,
not a tear would show itself
cowards, afraid to streak
the face of someone so
dormant inside

the raw came back.
it rolled in like a heavy storm
i cried on the floor, head to the ground
as i have other times.
then there was that freshness after the rain

i am thankful i got my life back
the life in me, the rawness
the pain, a crisp wind inflating a spirit
the feelings washed over
a previously tired wandering person on pause

a second, third, fourth, twentieth chance
evolution stops, rests, and keeps walking on
two steps nowhere, one step forward
if i feel, i can grow, if i grow,
i can be real and live raw